Back from Batam after commissioning on weekend

This is so so so stupid, simply wasting time... Go there like doing nothing. Wasted my beloved weekend. Oh well, i came back on sat noon, first thing i did was, calling my gf who is currently accompany her friends and will only find me at night. Sigh~ how i wish i can say no to her telling her to come to me instantly. Maybe you might think i am selfish not to let her have fun with her friends, but if u know that on my trip there wasting time and plus food poisioning and almost ended up in hospital, ya i think u wun think i am selfish ba?

In my mind when calling her, was hoping to buy wine at the custom for her that she likes. After asking and asking, finally came to an answer of "no"... sigh~ so i went to ask the lady at the counter if i can buy for one night staying at batam. Zzzz... She told me only 2 days night staying than can allow you to buy. I was like... Haix, just hoping that tonight i can be happy with my gf accompanying me...

Life in batam:

Haha, you never know all kind of funny things i heard over there. 1st, i was with this company named LGB. There he was explaining what that name was without meaning. Simply to say LGB = life is good in batam. After these two days of staying there, i than understand why he said that. Over there, it seems like girls to them there are puppy love. Can you believe that he can just pet and touch girls that they want and will to pay them monthly just for sleeping with them? To me, no i cannot. I take relationship seriously. But from the girls there, it just made them 不自爱. The girl that i saw, well quite pretty and age 20, was mother of one child and divorced. Than more stories heard from them of other places made me see the world more bigger but uglier.

Stomach calls, looks like i wun be happy with my stomach today le... Dear, if i give u moody, hope you understand and sorry for not telling u for food poisoning. I dun wan to worry you.

Day after day, hour after hour, time ticking pass.. Guess what? My heart is really really broken. I am sad. Hell right, my heart is breaking... Why, can you tell me why am my heart broken into so million pieces? Your words hurt me, your attitude hurts me, so so so many things and times you had hurt me.. Why did i still come back to you? Have you ever try to understand just a single bit? The fact is i had love deeply down in me but did you? Care and concern is part of love, but is it really love? True that alot of things i did made you unhappy and even angry. Did you told me the exact thing? The minute my guess is wrong, there, i simply lost it.

Avoiding isn't the best cure, when u want to heal it, you have to go for treatment. For now, what is the treatment for me, my poor little hurting heart. I really do not hope i have to die to cure it. If it's so, i will go...