Few more hours to my interview, feeling tired and restless now due to the late night talk with someone i like so much that i can't bear to hang up. Hey hey dun think i complaining hor, i am happy that i get to talk to her... She now also damn tired lo.. Oh well, today is such a bad day for me, early in the morning started to rain... Now Now Now, suddenly i felt like i dun wan to go for the interview... I dun know why.. Life sucks.. I feeling super depression now and there isn't anyone i can really approach.. Am i really ready for everything in life? Am i really wanting to settle down all my life? Is this the lifestyle i actually wanted? I had been think all night long of stuff that was told by her.. Still i didn't really know i wan for life.. I felt so sad and depress now. I dare not to call her now.. Sorry! Please god, let me have a sense of direction where i am heading, i felt so lost now.. Hopefully death is not the solution as there isn't anything hurting me till dying.. Wat am i thinking, omg sorry...

The old man says:" Depression and lost,who cares!"