Awww, today wanted to hide at one corner to peek at her one.. Kaoz, i cannot... Her shop is at the corner, where still got corner for me to hide? No building no anything... how to hide?? Than decided to sms her letting her know than in the end sitting down right infront of the shop where there is a bench.. Seeing no one looking at me, quickly took out camera and took down.. Didn't expect her to accompany me, wow she did.. =D i was so happy. I was introduce to her two brother, didn't get to know more about her elder brother, but i manage to talk alot with the younger one.. He even bring me food to eat.. Is like wa, but how sad, i can't eat cause i drink too much yesterday and i feel like puking.. How sad.. but still i try to finish it and pass it to her and her brother.. Haha! sorry la really cannot force ma, u wan see me puke meh? We talk laugh and took pictures.. But again still no mine pic.. Muz be i dun stand in pic that why always no one wan to take pic with me.. Haha! For the first time i get to see her relatives and her family, wa how stressful and paiseh, but than i dun know what to say to them. Well she look so tired, how heart pain i got, muz be she keep running in my mind, that why she so tired.. Haha! joking.. I really want to let her know how much i really love her and do hope she consider me and give me a chance. Well, now the sad thing... It's time, it's time to leave, leaving to a place where no guys likes.. What are u thinking? Come on la, it's army la.. Stupid off day kanna go back to duty, how sad and tired. Still i wanna talk to her if got chance. Cause i miss her la. You know la, love is like this.. Oh ya, never forget to mention, today after going off from there, i went to my cousin house, there is one parrot.. The adults told me to open to play with.. So i do so lo, than the parrot climb all over me, than i decided to put back. When going to caught it, it bite me, damn it hurts.. My thumb got swollen abit. Where's my chopper, chop off its head.. Jking jking.. I not that cruel.. Ok la, me going off le, else no time to do other things le..

Stupid parrot that bite me!

The old man says:"Love is blind so am i!"

I am so sorry everyone.. I am so not myself.. Perharps too sad and too annoyed.. Haha, still alive and kicking. Hopefully life resume normal this time. To some it may seem nothing, to me.. haha! Ok let see, what i am going to do today.. Basketball?? Nahz drink too much yesterday, dun feel like going. Watch a movie? Also cause drink too much and tired to watch too. Hmm what else can i do?? I know, i know, i will be going down to see someone i wish to see. Hoping that she is also hoping that i come.. It's her mother shop openning... Hmm, should i let her know i am going or should i juz hide somewhere where she can't even see me.. Haha! oh well, if only she is calling me.. Call me up, dun worry, i talk to anyone who call me today. The most i juz hang up only :P

The old man says:"Drinking with bad mood make u sick and drunk only!"

I am so sorry guys, today i am in a super foul mood. My life seem so bad.. It juz sucks... I really so dun wan to live. I dun wish to talk in msn. Sorry. No one will know how i feel now, it really juz sucks. Now than i know that i knew nothing, NOTHING at all for my 3 years studying. Why do i still come home? Why should i still come back here.. I should have die outside.. I sucks.. I am so down, so down after the interview till i can actually took one bus which i didn't know where it head and ended up taking one hour ride to bedok. I really hate myself. Wanting to go up high and ended falling so painful. I dun even have the face to stay at home. I wan to go, i really want to go.. Some place that i believe shall cool me down now.. Good bye everyone..

The old man says:"Good bye!"

Few more hours to my interview, feeling tired and restless now due to the late night talk with someone i like so much that i can't bear to hang up. Hey hey dun think i complaining hor, i am happy that i get to talk to her... She now also damn tired lo.. Oh well, today is such a bad day for me, early in the morning started to rain... Now Now Now, suddenly i felt like i dun wan to go for the interview... I dun know why.. Life sucks.. I feeling super depression now and there isn't anyone i can really approach.. Am i really ready for everything in life? Am i really wanting to settle down all my life? Is this the lifestyle i actually wanted? I had been think all night long of stuff that was told by her.. Still i didn't really know i wan for life.. I felt so sad and depress now. I dare not to call her now.. Sorry! Please god, let me have a sense of direction where i am heading, i felt so lost now.. Hopefully death is not the solution as there isn't anything hurting me till dying.. Wat am i thinking, omg sorry...

The old man says:" Depression and lost,who cares!"

Aww, siao one juz now, i was driving to my friend house in order to learn more on what i am going to give a surprise.. On my way there, i went wrong road as planned, than ended up something wrong happen.. I miss the junction that i need to go in, at a driving speed of 70km/h with a car tail gating like that, i slow down to wait for other car to get off so to not miss that junction. Extreme right lane to left and turn in at 30km/h, it is damn fast lo.. siao one.. Cause of this i also put coupon at 8am... Wth am i doing... Hahaha! anyway now safe and sound at home again.. Haha, think today i should really stay at home...

The old man says:" When you drink, do not drive! I didn't drink, i dun think i should drive too!HAHA!"

Hmm, today played pq with zheng.. Ah yo, should i say noob? Whaha! I know i too pro le, that why u like blur blur one.. Oh well, dulan with other party but still get to complete twice.. So sian... after that i went out to cycle alone at the beach.. Hmm, is like so long i haven't cycle from home le.. Still as show off as can be, i free hand almost all the way, while passing the traffic light, one idiots bus driver speed on the turn, i was like 10cm away from the bus and almost get knock down lo.. Idiots.. Carrying cycling to the beach, saw a kid sitting on the pony, he looked at me as if seeing monkeys in the zoo?? I am not hor... Hahaha!! jkjk.. Free hand all the way from one end to the other end of the beach. So long didn't cycle the same old path le.. Took some pics wor.. wanna see? bet u wan! haha, kidding...

Isn't the view nice? Always down there not moving right? so weird.. Haha! The other pic is a group of teenagers playing some passing ball games and they keep yelling.. Haha! pic still ok ba? i hope! Ok now safe and sound at home, tml going interview le.. Wish me luck wor! Going for dinner le, byeZZ!! mum nagging liao.. Always.. HAHA!

The old man asks:" Why does all mum like to nag?"

Hahaha! I am just so mysterious... Even the girl i like also say so.. Right?? =P Anyway, today is the first time that i had been asked out from her for a dinner... I was like so happy.... What else can i dream of from a so busy girl that willing to come out with me? I sudden felt a good progress with her.. After dinner, i manage to ask her out to the beach.. We chit chat and walk.. I keep seeing her hand swing here and there, so wanna grap it.. But... i didn't.. How sad, she isn't my gf yet, i can't do that... I felt happy to see her, but still i felt sad too... Although it seem like a dating, but than so many message and phone rings.. How sad.. Wonder if she knows it?? So many times i actually wanted to ask her to be my date, wanted to let her know i wanted her to be mine but than i know from her she didn't wanted to start a relationship. How sad.. It's okie, i dun force you. While on her calls, i told myself, i shouldn't be so selfish. She is having her exams tml, why am i still here making her staying with me... Therefore i actually set alarm of 8:20pm to send her home.. So unwillingly but i did it.. If only time can stay there forever, if only i can keep her with me.. Juz my luck, even walking her back to her house, still got phone.. Haix, ok la, can't blame someone that is so busy.. Till now i still dun know what relationship we are yet. I juz know our relationship are growing closer everyday, i do believe one day u will give me ur answer. From your blog, i hopefully didn't bring you any trouble or make u unfocus. If this is the case, i will rather you tell me and i will juz make myself disappear than to see u so troubled and unhappy. At least i can release one trouble stuff if that really helped. Anyway, i really felt jealous and sad after reading especially one of his testimonal. Stating that u are attached protected adored and nt avaliable... If that is true, please let me know and dun hide from me. Aside from what happen today and my feeling, hahaha i going to have an interview this coming wednesday.. Happy and sad.. What's so happy? I got a job (high chance ba), job place is near my love sch... Sadness =( So far away.. Hopefully is near my house ba.. Tml will be a busy day i guess, apart of rewriting my resume, printing and doing alot of shit stuff, lets hope everything is successful ba. Wa feel so like vomiting now.. Better had some rest le, take care very one and nightzz..

The old man says:"Jealousy bring you to no where, Patience are the most important factor!"

Soooo sorry... Still haven't get the photo.. Cannot post the pic.. Nvm.. Sharing big secrets... Dun read ok! Today, i went to teach like usual. Wa, that girl that i like, finally pop up there liao... Is like so happy and so shy.. Dun know what to say to her, just wanted to stay as close to her as possible. Whole day teaching, really not get to talk to her at all.. Even playing games with the kids, i was like so far away from her. Oh well, nothing i can say, perharps is juz fate. After awhile, i finally decided to tell everyone i am not coming anymore. Took pictures with everyone, than we depart away. Even going back, i still dun get to see her, she went off even b4 get to say goodbye. How sad. Is this the last time i am seeing her? Will i get to see her again? I wondering... Just b4 everything seem hopeless, yeah she message me. She wrote goodbye to me and she is happy to see me but sad that i wun be coming agian. Awww it's like... Asked her to join us for dinner, got me ben and pearlyn but she didn't wan, how sad. i than recieve a message from her, she say she meet her friends and wow she miss me wor. I was like flying to the sky.. 1st time got people miss me liao wor. So i decided to send her home after that. After we depart from dinner, i send pearlyn off since i got nothing to do and ben is taking mrt. Half way, i ask her if what time she going to meet me. Aww she done long ago and didn't message me. I say goodbye to pearlyn than rush back to find her where she is waiting in the MRT. Told her that i talk to pearlyn and stuff, i sense that her face expression changed. Next wrong thing i done was saying sure or not in missing me... Not that i dun believe, but like is so long no one ever miss me so i ask abit. Hope she is not disappointed and unhappy about it. Actually wondering, is she jealous? If she is i will be so happy, cause if she jealous mean that i got chance but than she will be unhappy. Haha.. We chat abit and started to walk her home le. Walking her home seems so fast and yet going back home is like so far. How i hope time slow down when sending her back. Oh ya, while walking back, she told me stuff happening to her with her friend that like her and her ex.. What does this means sia? I am gald to know this but than should know i get jealous one ma. Oh well, knowing i get jealous, i truely believe that i like her than a crush le ba. 1st time reach outside her house, i was like so paiseh. She ask me to go in to have a sit, but i felt so shy to go in lo. Proceeding to the beach, i went to toilet and go back passby her house to see her b4 going home. Ah yo, she didn't saw me, should be eating her dinner but i saw her watching tv. Hmm she told me she ate finish liao, so fast sia. Say i wore yellow is so bright but than still didn't saw me when i was facing her lo... Haha!

The Old man says:"I think i like you truely madly deeply."

Contines from previous post...

Wow, late in the afternoon my friend asked me to go east coast park go rollerblading with them. Was thinking so long didn't rollerblade liao, still know how ma.. Hmm.. Nvm i gave it a shot, Aww was like so hard.. Still remember the last time i rollerblade was like sec 4, times flies... Still than i do know how to move and didn't fall down okie? Well, i keep thinking, why am i so slow and my friend mandy(girl) was like so fast.. Rushing like hell, whenever i caught up with her, i was like half dead.. Tiring.. Till it rained, we found a shelter and took a rest. Finally resting time, than i realise my blade wheel got problem. The wheel was cracked... OMG! Did i spoilt it? Nooo.... Removing one wheel from the blade, the rain stopped. We went back to the shop, wow i was like so fast and not tiring at all. Damn the blades, than on my way back, i found out one more wheel starting to crack.. Awww! Muz be they give me the lousy shoe.. I took off the shoe and join them by running. Wa, that was so tiring... Stupid shoes... reached the shop and my friend help me quarrel with them, i was like so exhasted. Than they quarrel about more time for me to blade but i was so tired, how i am able to go on? Stopping their quarrel by returning half hour earlier, i join them by running.. Siao one, they cycle and blading, how i win them? Felt tired and i went to the beach alone waiting for them to come back. Alone in the beach, the sand the sea, ah i started thinking about her again. She didn't message me or call me. How sad! Felt a moment of sadness, with tiredness and sadness i went back to the shop to wait for them to return. Wa they return liao and we all went to the beach again. This time round got i burried mandy leg in the sand.. Photos was taken wor.. Next time than post, cause i didn't recieve it cause her computer was down. Dun mistake she as my gf hor, she got bf and going to rom once that guy ask her.. She is juz my good friend. Now back at home, tired sad hungry lonely, looks like i should be drinking and get drunk later. Kz.. Logging off liao byebye!

The old man says:"I hate lairs!"

Once again, thinking of blogging so here i am talking rubbish again.. Hahaha! Why sudden out of no where blogging ah? Hmm, why ah? Haha cause i fall in love le.. It felt so great to have such feeling once again, heart beating irregular repeatively thoughts of someone.. Finally i am back to a normal person liao.. Rather sad to say, i had been feeling very low this few days cause of such feeling. I felt sad, lonely and even worst hate. I knew things i shouldn't have, the girl that i love, why did i dig out stuff which make me so down. My heart broken down into million pieces, i can't think normally and act normally. I hate liars. Why must she? oh well, i also dun know what i writing now liao.. Anyways, i will be going out tonight to drink my hard liquor to make myself drunk tonight. Wun be in today i think.. ok cya!

The oldman says:"I am very sad today!"