Am i dead? why am i killing myself? or am i juz that damn freaking sway? Lets see where should i start... Hmm, the path of my sway period come like that, i got myself bang onto the wall(ouch that hurts).. Than the person i like, rejected me...(Fated?) Followed by as mention i kanna caught by police...(That's so stupid), next day bicycle wheel kanna stolen (haix), somemore injured my knee cap and seriously hurt... (OUCH), went to pray but the temple closed (juz my luck), cycle to celebrate children day almost got killed by bus, this morning fishing with bro almost make him caught the smallest fish ever caught in fishing pond. (That sucks) Why am i juz so unlucky? Alot of things actually almost killed me, even today, i went for a 12 rounds stadium run, my chest was like so...(almost die again) Is it time for me to die? Am i going to die soon? Sad, lonely, heart pain(both emotionally and physically), hurt, crazy! Is this all my luck? Am i fated to be like this? What had i been doing? Where had my guarding angel been?

The oldman says:"Come back to me? pls come back to me!"

FUCKING FUCKING FUCKING STUPID POLICEWOMEN.... ISN'T MOON CAKE FESTIVAL MEANT TO PLAY CANDLE FOR PEOPLE LIKE ME? How dare she come and warn me and make us use coins to make all the wax up from floor... BRAINLESS STUPID POLICEWOMEN... Haix... Feeling freaking bad mood and sad liao than go down play candle today, still kanna this stupid thing.. AM i juz that sway or not... Sorry for the bad words but still i cannot take it anymore.. Something gone crazy in me... Can anyone heal me? ahhh!!!

This oldman says:"I had gone crazy!!!"

This old man is sad, is feeling bad, is crazy, is going to get drunk, is dying soon... And this old man is not joking... I still remembered the last 2 times when i drank alcoholic drink, one time i almost ended up seeing a doctor and the other i was... Why am i doing it again even knowing it will harm myself? Well i am crazy.. i had been feeling very sad, i wasn't forgiven by alot of people. Today, even knowing my arm was injured, i still force myself to play basketball whole day with kelson.. Can u juz imagine how do u play when u cannot even raise ur arm up? Well, during evening time i still gone to play a match with other players which we dun know and went to play a serious match. Wondering how my arm are now? Haha! pain of course... Well took some pain killers from doctor, still than what really hurting me now isn't my arm, it's my heart... I am sad, i am really sad... Now i can't forgive myself anymore liao.. Hurting people and got hurt. Is this meant to be my fate? I think i really gone crazy.. Now all i wanna say to you is "I AM SORRY!" I know you are saying i am crazy now, yup i admit i am now.. I dun know what i am going to do next, Juz hope my body wun get too much damage from drinking tonight!

The old man says:"Dun learn this from me, i am crazy!"

I am so............................ What the hell is happening to me? i am no longer than same old person i once was. why why why? Bad things happened and happened over and over again... work sucks, life sucks, everything sucks for me... i sux. I not only injured myself badly, i injured the person i like. I AM SORRY! i really dun mean to hurt you. Pls stop ignoring me? i felt like hell when u avoid and ignore me. i am so crazy... If i were given the second chance, if i were, i will stop myself from doing all such stupidily and life for me should be much more better now... I really seek for your forgiveness.. i sux!

The old man says:"The hardest 3 things to say is: help me, i love you and i am sorry"